I am still a Disciple Lately I have realised something that has made me uncomfortable. I talk about Discipleship often. I care about it deeply. I want to Disciple others well in my workplace, in church and through my writing. But this season has reminded me that before I Disciple anyone else I must keep allowing God to shape me into His image. For a long time, I believed that planning and Discipline would protect me from uncertainty. Even in my faith I quietly tied it to performance and success. But failure in high school and experiencing personal grief exposed that illusion. Scripture did not remove the pain but remolded me. I am learning that Discipleship is not dramatic. It is slow. It is daily. It happens at 4:30am in prayer before the day begins. It happens during the 10 minutes of Scripture reading that I do quietly to correct my thinking. It happens when I read something I do not understand and realise I am still a learner. ...
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Learning to Trust God There comes a point in life when effort, planning and good intentions are no longer enough. You can do everything right and still find yourself waiting. Still uncertain. Still carrying questions you do not know how to answer. I have learned that these moments are often where faith becomes real. For a long time I believed that trusting God meant asking Him to bless my plans. I prayed sincerely worked hard and tried to remain faithful. Yet beneath that faith sat an unspoken assumption that if I planned carefully enough and stayed disciplined, things would eventually fall into place. What I did not realise was how tightly I was holding on to control. Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV) has been with me through the times of waiting: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight” I have read that verse as an encourage...